Popular English singer and songwriter Jessie J recently revealed her state of mind to her fans through her social media account where Jessie opened up about her recent loss.
Earlier Wednesday, Jessie took to her Instagram to reveal how she has been battling with her recent trauma after suffering a miscarriage. The songwriter said her sadness is overwhelming following the major loss in her life.
The 33-year-old shared a picture of herself holding a positive pregnancy test kit in a devastating state. She penned down a heartfelt note following the incident. She wrote, “Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying “seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant”.”
She later continued how she has been dealing with her misery, “By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down. After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat”, followed by a heartbreak emoji.
Jessie continued, “This morning. I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don’t know. What I do know is that I want to sing tonight. Not because I’m avoiding the grief or the process, but because I know singing tonight will help me.”
Later she spoke about her singing career and how it has been therapeutic to her, “I have done 2 shows in 2 years and my soul needs it. Even more today. I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it. But at this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn’t ever changed and I have to process this my way. I want to be honest and true and not hide what I’m feeling. I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be at this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did it’s best. I know myself and I know I would talk about it on stage because that’s who I am. So instead of a tearful emotional speech trying to explain my energy. This feels safer.”
The songwriter also told her fans about her life-changing decision and how the recent incident made her more determined, “I decided to have a baby on my own. Because it’s all I’ve ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again. I’m still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok.”
She ended the note by addressing the women who have felt the same some way or other in their life, “
I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don’t. It’s the loneliest feeling in the world.”
However, the singer announced she will be having the scheduled concert in LA and wrote, “So I will see you tonight LA. I may crack less jokes but my heart will be in the room.”
Jessica Cornish earlier has spoken about her infertility issues. The singer also revealed at a concert that her gynecologist had told her that she would never be able to have children.
More power to you, Jessie!